Archive for May, 2012

I’m Not Enough

Posted in Pain, Poetry on May 22, 2012 by Poetic Flow

Where do I begin?
Except to say I’ve given my all.
Thrown myself at his tender mercy
And in return kicked to the ground.
I wear the mental anguish well,
Some would say,
And yet I’m standing tall,
Despite the war wounds I bear.

I’ve not the satisfaction
Of honor, respect
And true love.
Those were taken from me
So long ago.
With nothing more than my sanity to hold on to.
Forced to walk away,
I refused to look back
To see what I’ve left behind.
Afraid to carry that life into tomorrow.

It’s not enough to have worked my fingers to the bone,
That I’ve not bled enough blood
For someone who did not appreciate my spiritual being;
To give life to someone who cared not to
Mend my broken happiness
And love me the way in which I loved him.

I’ve not given enough to satisfy a thirst
I no longer can fulfill.
Never mind,
Tis the day will come when I will be fine,
And he will be a forgotten memory.
And I will be in the arms of someone
Whom I will be his queen.

I’m a victim of an emotional breakdown
And yet they laugh at me because
I live on recycled memories to save me,
And moments of daydreams to hold me together.

My rejected body feels no pleasure from a love
I once called my own.
In that dark room is where I find comfort,
Hiding from prying eyes to ward off
Ridiculous chatter of judgmental thoughts.

Leave me to wallow in misery for the time being.
It’ll only be a minute or two,
Then I will walk away with nothing more than
My sanity in tack,
Refusing to look back
To see what I’ve left behind.

No reason to go season after season
Wearing the same face of sorrow.
The power to change the future ahead of me
Is in the grasps of my hands,
I simply need to turn the knob and open the door,
Take one step,
Then another and I will be on my way.

I’ve cried my last tear of pain and sadness.
Let me shed the wounds that bind me to a state
Of mental depression.
I can see my smiles in the distance,
That place where happiness reigns.

Goodnight sweet surrender,
Into the blue horizon I travel,
To find my soul to live once again.
And if he should remember me,
Let it be in lost memories he let
Slip away in the far corners of his mind.

Love Me Gently

Posted in Love & Romance, Poetry on May 16, 2012 by Poetic Flow

Tis the day will come
When all I want to do is to
Fall away into your field of dreams.
Where in the moon light
We will share what only lovers could share.

Your touch moves me with the
Sway of the ocean’s waves,
And I am hypnotized by the
Feelings I’ve succumb to.
 
My tears disappear in the
Blowing wind –
Your breath upon my skin
Soothing my once troubled soul.
 
Love me gently,
For my heart was weary.
Bring me back to the
Long days of making love
Where all I know is you
And the music we make together,
And you changing and rearranging my world,
Making it whole again.
 
Whenever you kiss me
Long and sweet,
My heart skips a beat,
And I want to fall in love
With you all over again.
 
My body is jellified,
Caught in the reminiscence
Of who you once became to me,
To whom we became to each other,
That, which time keeps us here
Sharing in this life.
I don’t ask why,
Just ask where in time will we go.
 
Hold my hand like you used to.
Love me gently,
Ending all of my sorrowful days.
Fill me of the heavenly blessings
Your body beholds,
And we are
Intertwined with each other,
underneath the cherry blossom trees.
 
Be my thirst for lust,
My drive for desiring all you possess inside,
The one I run to for a tender moment,
Embraced in your revelry.
Kiss me standing on
The horizon of a new day.
 
Help me to renew my faith
In what we had,
And continue to have.
Take me to that place in your heart,
Letting me wake up to the reality
Of the trueness of our love.

But whatever you do,
Love me gently
As I give my heart and soul back to you,
And we become one in this new life
We create for each other.

(“Imperfections:  Of Life’s Divine”)

This Aching Feeling

Posted in Love & Romance, Pain, Poetry on May 2, 2012 by Poetic Flow

Do you think of me even in a moments passing?
Do you whisper my name even on the breath of a midnights wind?
Do you relish in the memory of the love I give so willingly
From my body within?
Do you feel for me how I feel for you?
Do you long for me in my absence
The way that I long for you when you are not there?
You, the one I have loved for so long.
Or have we come to find ourselves passing in the night
On different ships?
Drifting into worlds apart,
Non-existent to each other?

This aching lonliness I feel at the surface of my heart
Has thrown me into a frenzy of darkness,
A place where I have found solitude,
Where my tears reign supreme behind closed doors,
Never setting me free.

The love from your warm embrace is absent from my soul.
The love we made that brought our bodies one to one
Is that of a fading memory lost in the distance.
I see you there,
And yet invisible to you I have become.

This aching inside is that which I cannot shake.
Afraid that when I open my eyes you will be
That of a dream that’s left me
With kissless nights under Heaven’s moonlit skies,
And your tender lips that once touched mine will escape me
And be no more.
I was yours at one time, but only in a dream.

Did it ever occur to you that the days of distant pasts
Have come back to linger with regrets of the
Pain we’ve experienced,
That which has torn us apart in some unexpected way?
I have given all I could give of myself
Thus it never enough to satisfy you,
Or to return to the love we once shared.

If we have reached the end of the horizon,
I can only pray that the light that shines on the
Tail of the shooting star
Will bring us back together to live out our days
Like that which we once planned.
I will never cease loving you in this world
Or the next.

(For the coming book “Imperfections: Of Life’s Devine,”)

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